Tuesday, February 13, 2007

here is a photo of me at Studio by the Tracks where I work with emotionally conflicted children and autistic adults - photo by ryanrussell.net

Monday, February 5, 2007

My Favorite Movies

Master of the flying Guilliotine, Clean, Anything by the Brothers Quay or Ladislaw Starewicz or Jan Svankmajer, Almost anything by Fulci,Vagabond, Camera Buff, Lady Snowblood, Fists in the Pocket, Scanners, CONQUEST!, Solaris by Andre Tarkovsky and his film the Mirror and his documentary about the Paris Slaughterhouse, Night of the Hunter, Fulci's "the beyond", The Brood, Any Wong Kar Wai movie especially In the Mood for Love and Happy Together, Children of Men, Face of Another, Woman in Dunes, Wild Strawberries, Gummo, Edward Scissorhands, Rushmore, Dancer in the Dark, Creature from the Black Lagoon,the bat, white zombie, i bury the living, fear and loathing in las vegas, american history x, manchester morque, bottle rocket, Kill Bill 1&2, Spider Babies, The Birds, All About My Mother, the Shining, Basket Case, La belle et la bete, Bonnie and Clyde, The Cabinet of Dr. Caligari, Capturing the Friedmans, Children of Heaven, The Evil Dead, E.D. Dead by Dawn, Jules et Jim, The Box, Slither, The 400 Blows, Kwaidan, L'Atalante, The Living Corpse, M, Se7en, A Man Escaped, Dangers of Spider Island Near Dark, Short Night of Glass Dolls, A Snake of June, Calvaire, My Beautiful Laundrette, Secrets and Lies, Nights of Cabiria, the Plaque of the Zombies Nosferatu (all of em), Female Trouble, The Old Dark House, A trip to Bountiful, Ran, Red Dragon & The Silence of the Lambs, Rosemary's baby, Salem's Lot, The Sword of Doom, Dead Alive The Story of Ricky, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974), The Third Man, Vampyr, royal tennenbaums, True Romance, Winged Migration, Dead Ringers, Y tu Mama Tambien, 28 Day Later, Alphaville, The first and third Blade, The Bride with White Hair, The Devil's Backbone, Chungking Express, Curse of the Demon, taxi driver, Eyes without a Face, Whispering Corridors, Who Saw Her Die?, The Witch who came from the Sea, The eyes of Laura Mars, Haxan (Witchcraft through the ages), Sunrise, Shaolin Soccer, Kung-fu Hustle, Fulci's City of the Living Dead & The Beyond, Blue, The Double life of Veronique, La Jetee, Adaptation, Do the Right Thing, the alien dead, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Waiting for Guffman, Dead Alive, Pi:Faith in Chaos, Zombie, Angel Heart, Beetlejuice, Nightmare before Christmas, Dementia/Daughter of Horror, The Corpse Grinders, The Crazies, Les Yeux Sans Visage, Mr. Vampire, Dead Ringers, Blue Velvet, The Elephant Man, Carnival of Souls, Fire walk with Me, Woman with Snake Hair, El Espinazo del Diablo, Brute Force, The Bicycle Thief, Santo y Blue Demon Contra Los Monstrous, Fireworks, After Life, Black Lizard, Evil Dead Trap, any of the Female Convict (Scorpion) Movies, the loved one, forbidden games, rear window, female convict scorpion jailhouse 4, the umbrellas of cherbourg, microcosmos, Tokyo Drifter,4 Hour Party People, Caddyshack, Blues Brothers, Pootie Tang, Freddie Got Fingered, The Longest Day, Kentucky Fried Movie, Tapeheads, Fargo, Freaknik: Hip Hopumentary, Breathless, The Mack, Supersta: The Karen Carpenter Story, Brazil, Two Lane Blacktop, Straight No Chaser, Drugstore Cowboy, Grey Gardens, Blazing Saddles, Suspiria, 24 Hour Party People, The Last Laugh, He Restoreth My Soul, How to Get Ahead in Advertising, Metropolis, Aquirre- The Wrath of God, The Weather Underground, Carnival of Souls, Tremors, Up in Smoke, The Shinning, Hell House, Faster, Pussycat! Kill! Kill!, Breaking Away, A Bucket of Blood, Tapeheads, The Satellite Sky, Scorpio Rising, Dr Mabuse- The Gambler, Caddyshack, The Empire Strikes Back, Scarface, Dolemite, The short Films of David Lynch, Shawshank Redemption, The Jimmy Show, Rosemary's Baby, 5,000 Fingers of Dr. T, The Toy, Spider Baby, Strange Brew, Rushmore, 2001: A Space Oyddysey, Lyme Disease: The Untold Story, Beyond the Valley of the Dolls, Evil Dead, Meatballs, Gates of Heaven, Brother's Kepper, A Year and a Half in The Life of Metallica, Wild at Heart, Do the Right Thing, Slasher, Fantasia, Boogie Nights, Eraserhead, Brazil, Roadhouse, The Godfather, Hard-Boiled, Ran, Crumb, Stir Crazy, Pee Wee's Big Adventure, The Wiz, A Clockwork Orange, Vernon Florida, Tom Dowd and the Language of Music, Berkeley in the 60's, The Gospel Road, Hands on a Hard Body, Skidoo, The Decline of Western Civilization 1 and 2, Putney Swope, Willy Wonka and the Coclate Factory, Guayana: Crime of The Century, The House of Yes, CB4, El Topo, Island of Lost Souls, Un Chien Andalou, Another State of Mind, The Loved One, Blow-Up, Slap Shot, The Jerk, Blade Runner, Radio Bikini, The Best of Everything, Cocksucker Blues, How to Irritae People, Five Dealy Venoms, Creature From The Black Lagoon, The Rutles, Hearts and Minds, Space is the Place, Django, Human Condition, Horror films from Bollywood and Satyajit Ray films, Christian youth Scare Films, Survival Research Lab Documentaris, Shadows and Fog, Nanook of the North, Sherman's March, Man Bites Dog, Russian Animation, Black Sunday, Rules of the Game, Hiroshima Mon Amour, Contempt, A Man Escaped, The Umbrellas of Cherbourg, Irma Vep, Aventurera, Cabeza de Vaca, Chac: The Rain God, El Gallo de Oro, Belle de Jour, Repulsion, El Bruto, Land Without Bread, Aquirre:Wrath of God,
My favorite things
art, drawing, skulls, mortality, baby skeletons, making dolls, collage, taking photographs, music, anything abandoned or rusty, playing keyboards, seahorses, and other creatures of the sea, accordions, toy pianos, organs, Mexico, France, Cambodia, Khmer Rouge, bri-collage, felt, tlaquepaque, travel, native plants, drugs, thrift stores, halloween, hallucinations, hermits, horror, illusions, insanity, introverts, isolation, joel-peter witkin, ralph-eugene meatyard, fransesca woodman, lullabies, macabre, mad teaparties, madmen, magicians, manifestations, mannequins, marionettes, music boxes, mythology, nightmares, oddities, old storybooks, puppet theatre, puppetry, religious art, shadowboxes, silent films, sleeping my life away, stop motion animation, taxidermy, tea parties, thunderstorms, toys/action figures, victorian, violins, weeping willows, junk, flea markets, making strange dolls, old medical posters, ceramics, breaking ceramics, fight against ceramics, vespas, trains, caves, breaking things, breaking and entering (still), grafitti, sleeping, motos, tequila, moogs, dia de los muertos, medical furniture, film, animation, medical freaks, photography, documentaires, playing the accordion, my keyboard glockenspiel, old bottles & jars, old animation, vintage cabinet photographs, old photographs, old paper & ephemera, retablos, San Cristobal de las Casas, found drawings in old science textbooks, Zacatecas, Guadalajara, the desert, masks, tunnels, caves, small boxes & cabinets/curiosities, small things with drawers, secrets, twins, embellished dreams, prints, book arts, super 8 mm, my fisher price pixel vision, old educational films, utilitarian clothes and fabric, zombies, mortality, human shelter, grief, shadows, pins & needles, my ipod (i'm sorry), small intimate presents, horchata, winter melon tea, mangos & monkeys, ruins, old old houses, peeling wallpaper, old catalogs, art supplies, tea, insects, stars, ladders, images of hearts, hourglasses, eyes, & skulls, Dia de los muertos, Oaxaca, la soledad, mushrooms, botanicals, las brujas, meditation, yoga, martial arts, walking, antiquedaddes, stencils, old old abused toys, rusted crappy wierd metal parts, breathing, some dogs, old skateboards, toy models, dream pets, creme brulee, cool ranch doritos, sewing, antique sewing ephemera, skeletons, insects, abandoned buildings, affliction, anatomy, locks, antique dolls, asian horror movies, attic explorations, autumn, ball joint dolls, basements, bedtime stories, broken dolls, caged dolls, cemeteries, creatures of the night, extra body parts, the mutter museum, (and the one in Italy & Guanajuato) dollhouses, experimentation, fairytales, finding treasures, sleeping in second story windows.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

after looking for unusual white frames all day...I stopped and worked on the shop for L/P

Monday, January 22, 2007

Worked this weekend on a bunch of paintings for Magic City and started two additional large collages for the Jet Wat Lan ka Series

Wednesday, January 10, 2007

Mexican Notes

the hallowed pit cave
a breast, a well
blood like a splash of red mineral circles
an image as consecration to beliefs
the dreaming mind
"When the heart weeps for what it has lost, the spirit laughs for what it found"
"Its not the road you walk, its the walking"

the image of hands draw attention to the idea of desire?
the yoni- and the linga- are they universal images or not?


I plan to use this blog as a personal journal. Since I'm not the type to keep secrets (except ones even I don't know) I will be pretty forward so be warned. I'm an artist and most of my ramblings will be thoughts and meditations about my work or works in progress.

I was born in Springfield, Illinois. In 1990, I received a Bachelor of Fine Arts Degree from the University of Alabama at Birmingham. In 1993, I received a Master of Fine Arts Degree from the University of New Orleans. My paintings, videos, and books have been exhibited/published both nationally and internationally.

Books, because of their exterior/interior format, as well as their sequential ordering, have been of particular interest to me. The book as an object allows the viewer to be guided through a thought process as well as evoking time and journey/text and image in an intimate fashion. Currently both my paintings and book projects are explorations (visual) and meditations (poetry) encapsulating my ideas of spirituality, travel, love, death, shelter and hope. Autobiography is a huge part of my work. Chanting, dreaming and walking are repeated elements in most of my work. One example of this is my reoccurring use of bed and medical images. Our beds are where we spend at least a third of our lives, it’s where we dream - where we make love - its deeply private in most respects - but at the same time as soon as it’s on public display, it can remind a viewer of a hospital or prison bed, or a surgery table. I’m interested in forms and images that accompany the body and in the traces the body leaves: a bed, a coffin, a funeral urn, and shadows.

Although I work with the feelings of loss, mortality, and the power and delicate nature of memory, my work is a reflection of my attempt to live my life in fragile exultation. The process of piecing together an image is a meditative exercise for me. I begin with cast off images and papers, and layer seemingly dissimilar elements that trigger associations in complex combinations. Most of my recent work reflects a multitude of interests including phrenology, meditation, Buddhist architecture, text, medical illustration, and spirituality. My work is composed of myriad layers of media, ideas and associations. The process of piecing together an image is a kind of meditative exercise for me having as much to do with duration as physical texture. I see it as a function of time, like the idea of chanting. I want to personify intangible experiences and feelings and make them tangible for my audience. While painting and layering found materials, seemingly dissimilar elements begin to trigger associations with other images and ideas. It’s my hope that the viewer connects these images by drawing on their own interests and associations. The aim of my work has always been to arouse in my audience (as well as myself) an experience of empathy with my subject matter more than sympathy. I try to be very aware of how events are traced physically and emotionally - both violent and non-violent (passive). Even years after an event, feelings remain. I assemble and harness my feelings and my reflections on historical & autobiographical events by creating books and paintings that have the aura of those feelings imprinted on their surfaces.